Breaking Bad and Baking Bread

I don't know if it's because I'm no longer working or the constant questioning from some regarding what I'm doing with myself in retirement but over the last few months I have found myself reflecting much more critically on my creative output. I find thoughts along the lines of... what have you done today? what have you done this week/month etc invading my thinking.

I have been especially hard on myself during January with an induced sense of panic and anxiety that I'm wasting time.  After pondering this extensively I realised that I'm not quite the lost cause I thought I was as it just depends how I  view my activities. I realised I have achieved much more than I was aware of, for instance blogging. When I was at work blogging was just a desire now I am actually managing to get to grips with it and  post something reasonably regularly. Also I have been honing my bread making skills by baking all of our bread. According to my family my bread is much improved.

My biggest achievement this month however is watching all seasons of Breaking Bad lol. I'm not going to write anything about Breaking Bad because I'm sure all of you know it well and if you don't and you're interested you can have a look. Suffice to say after refusing to watch it for ages because I didn't think it was my thing ( I need to keep more of an open mind I think) I finally relented and after the first episode I was hooked. Now I feel bereft at coming to the end and need to find something else to get my teeth into when its dark, cold and windy outside.

I do have a few other achievements during January however the most significant is the realisation that it doesn't really matter what I do or don't do with my time as long as I feel happy and contented. I so do.